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here i am
00:38
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Here I am, here I am
How do you do
(My dad:) “are you doing Twinkle twinkle little star then”
“oh yes” (my grandmother)
Twinkle Twinkle little star “go on josie” (my sister)
How I wonder what you are
Up above the world so high
Like a diamond in the sky
Twinkle twinkle little star (my grandma)“that’s nice, that’s well done”
(my sister) “that’s great Josie”
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2. |
it won't be long
00:36
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I’ve tried and I’ve toiled
Now I just want to sing to you
I’ve lied and I’ve failed
And I’ve been strung along
Now I just want to sing you a song
It won’t clever but it won’t be long
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3. |
nobody listens
00:54
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Everybody sings now nobody listens
And I’m just the same a perpetrator of the crime
What do we think that we are solving
No protest song has ever changed my mind
We’re on a hiding surely to nothing
Down the drain to the end of the line
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Moonlight, lighting my darkest hours
Learning how deep these rivers are
Midnight brings on a fever
Knowing my love will suffer in art
But song a chain of stars around my heart
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5. |
dawning (original demo)
00:48
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Dawning, the weight of the world is breaking in
all of the hard, soft, light, dark
wait and hoping
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6. |
for the dark
01:00
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How dare you have that light they said
How dare it be so bright
You think yourself too good for the dark
Please don’t take it for it grew from just spark
For years now it’s burned here in my heart
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7. |
easily sung
01:33
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The lights in the dark are shining like stars
And know where I’ll be
There’s a fear, there’s a start, there’s a weight in my heart
And I know what I need
There’s a song with my name upon, easy
When I wake, in my sleep, in my hands, on my feet
Its every aching part
There’s a tune on my tongue all the day till it’s done
Its every end and start
There’s a song with my name upon
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8. |
a story
01:18
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They’re nothing more than words
Strung upon a tune
That I’ve given meaning, by singing them to you
It’s nothing but a show
My story to tell
That I’ve given meaning to
By singing it so well
(Nothing is….) no one is saved
And nothing is solved
It’s just a story familiar and old
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9. |
section a section b
01:30
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Caught on the wing and tide
Their courses that leave no trace on time
To linger under dust in corners
Then leave a space to know just where you were
To leave your trace in time
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I never learned French
Like I said I would
Never returned your call
That book you gave me is still on the shelf
I forgot about others and remembered myself
I worried my parents when I didn’t come home
To scared and too lazy to pick up the phone
And I’ve sung the tune and forgotten the words
And I let love languish and others be hurt
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11. |
only do playing now
00:46
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Work’s a world away I only do playing now
My heart I give away, it doesn’t belong to me now
Call me old fashioned I never knew so well
The causes, the pressures they’re all consuming now
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12. |
do with my mind
01:46
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What am I supposed to do with my mind
If I can keep it, sustain
If I can turn the will to the way
If I could strain it, refrain
If I can take a pen to the pain
And explain it again
If I can bring the form to the frame
What else can I do with my mind
If I can bring the moonlight
Down upon the water
If I can bring moon
Down on to the paper
Then what else can I do with my mind
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13. |
time is away
00:54
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I've got nothing but time on my hands
No bruises, no blisters but buckets of wasted sand
and time is away, each and everyday
I've got nothing but time on hands
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All twisted up in your shell
Never enough, never so well
Leave me alone, to dwell
All twisted up in your shell
Never enough never too well
Leave me alone to dwell
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All twisted up in your shell
Regressing back to your cells
We are all but progeny
Seedlings all
Once yet to be
Developing dirt year by year
All hands in the earth
Trying to root ourselves here
The sun knows no better by now
It all seems much littler somehow
Stuck to the sky
Living in hope
Questioning why
Thinking we know
We are all a litany
Of Seedlings all in-infini
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16. |
seedlings recorders
00:43
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17. |
boney
02:46
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Boney is the look and feeble is the gait
Those wide eyes put you in your place
Your lost in the endless space
From a mouth, repulsed and red
No word of consequence is said
But you’re lost in the longing inside your own head
A vessel to carry your dreams
A carcass of visible seams
But somewhere to house all your insecurities
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How will it go on
The turn of the moon’s gone
A further nine times along
And I’m still not moving on
Light limps along
From the dusk into the dawn
Then lights another long day beyond
That I won’t be moving on
We’re caught in the doorway
Not sure of the game we’re playing
And the stakes higher and higher raising
Till something’s gonna give it away
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19. |
this year
01:07
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This year I will straighten my back
I will lay down my weapons in good faith
Live unready for attack
This year I will shut my mouth
I won’t waste my words
I will listen
And give up some ground
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20. |
footfall
01:43
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You can carry on shouting
Till the darkness eats the light
Endlessly narrating on
This fistless little fight
But we’re all done talking
Till there’s footfall on the ground
There’s nothing left to say
We’re only going down
As the tide will roll away
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21. |
mainland (original demo)
02:16
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Like a ship in the night
She will sail away
But I am the shoreline
Always to stay, gradually worn away
She’s an island out on her own
It’s her sirens guiding you on
But I was your port in the storm
The white cliffs of dover no longer you home
We are the mainland, trapped alone
Watching and waiting unchanged
Undeterred until your return
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It was something familiar like the sound of the sea
I forgot I remembered, like some lost part of me
It was only a flicker it was barely a trace
Only there for a second and then gone from your face
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It was something familiar like the sound of the sea
I forgot I remembered, like some lost part of me
It was only a flicker it was barely a trace
Only there for a second and then gone from your face
I wouldn’t say I was lonely but I know we’re alone
And my mind clings to memory like flesh to the bone
Reflections at sundown can make me so sad
For there’s no way of keeping the day we’ve just had
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With all the words I have, I’ve run out already
A sentence in itself to strike on it squarely
It’s just your tender heart pumping the blood around body
It’s just your tender heart pumping my blood
….Is that enough
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The lake was frozen over and we’d given up on spring
Our hearts familiar feeling but what goodness could it bring
The melody lilts slowly you know you will sing
Syrup so sweet that you can’t help but drink
A cause to remain, a love of pleasure and of pain
A love longing in vain
A break in the clouds, a parting of ways
Her love a leitmotif
His a simple refrain
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26. |
throwing love
02:04
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Throwing and catching love
We’ll never know the reasons why all of these things are done
I waste my time I know there is line
A life to leave behind but I can’t say it
Lover set it free
You never made the most of me
My heart only dies with thoughts of greener grass on the other side
Throwing and catching love
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27. |
overnight (early draft)
01:03
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Overnight,
Early morning
London time
I was waking
I remember
All the time
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Overnight,
Early morning
London time
I was waking
I remember
All the time
A sleepy sight
In the glimmer
of first/that light
I was wavering
I remember
All that night
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Darkling bird, one for sorrow
How you borrow love from the rest
Darkling bird, for tomorrow
How you squander love in your nest
And Aye the magpie
Coveting the twinkling things
That others leave behind
And Aye the magpie
Borrowing and burying
Of feral feathered kind
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30. |
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Let there be no more sad refrains you say
Not another line for thorny is the vine
You’ve had my heart entwined
Endless briny seas the tears you cry for me
But how sweet is the sorrow of my love
My tale may turn the tide
And you just might decide not to leave
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31. |
take my love away
01:36
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I will stop writing you songs
Take my love away
I’m not made of stone darling
I can feel alone, I recognize your pain
I will stop giving a damn
Make my little stand
I’m no fucking fool darling
You don’t know who I am
Doubt you ever can
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32. |
take time
01:02
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I want to start slowly taking my time over
I want to start slowly taking my time over
I don’t want no fanfare you can leave it there
For another affair
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For a long time now I’ve wanted to say
Something to lighten your load brighten your day
But there aren’t the words for the colours I see
The patterns they change, won’t stay the same
And somehow my view is always imbued
With melancholia hues, dusty blues
At dusk and at dawn
Moments to wonder but somehow to mourn
These moments they pass to never return
And turn to nostalgia as our memory learns
For each pound of joy there’s an ounce of regret
If the sun rises you know it must set
So I’m noting it down to tuck it away
Saving some sunshine for my rainy day
And I’m trying to find that silverline
That runs through the clouds that collect in my skies
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Our love is a pendulum swing
We are two bells with alternate rings
In the sequence of high and low
You’ll be the other side of wherever I go
Forever repeating the only tune you know
The other side of whatever I know
Thought of resolving hanging in the air
A pendulum swinging from here to there
Our love is like bells ring, sweet and sad
The pull of the longing is all we have
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I thought a mother’s hands would grow on my arms somehow
I thought I’d know, thought I’d have days and days to decide
But maybe I don’t, maybe I won’t
How easy it was to linger cling
To the apron string
It’s been so long might know none of my own
Rock a bye baby on the tree top
When the wind blow
The cradle will rock
When the bow break
The cradle will fall
Down come baby cradle and all
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36. |
stones (original demo)
01:11
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You bring me stones tiny and jagged
Though all they’re all your own
End up in my pockets
We’re supposed to carry them
Without a word
No matter how heavy that burden
You bring me stones
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sad day (original demo)
01:22
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This heavy heart is lighter than the weight of your expectation
I can be sad today at losing of the leaves that blow away
The birds that never sing when a song is sung at the beginning of the day
If I just wait the light turn to dark after the grey skies of afternoons
That drift away like a sadness that pains
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38. |
medal
00:58
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Where’s the measure? where’s the metal?
Pinned to my heart worn your sleeve
You’ve pinned all your hopes on me
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39. |
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What do you want from me?
To be cast in stone
Whatever you get from me
Does it make you strong?
And I’m a fool, all alone
But you didn’t break me
I’ve never been strong
What do you want from me?
To be set in song
Made my melody to be sung upon
And I’m a fool to have played along
But you didn’t break me
I’ve never been strong
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40. |
your hands are tied
02:09
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Your hand is tied to my hand
And your dreams appear in my dreams
You fall in the ocean and I’ll be dragged underneath
Your is tied to my hand
And your dreams appear in my dreams
I fall in the ocean and you’re coming with me
When did we cease to be what we are
And never did near seemed quite so far away
Now I miss the moments and you rue the day
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You’re too open the light comes in
When you're too open all teeth and chin
And there’s no one following
Oh to be an enigma like you
Oh not to be seen right through
I would give anything
To not to be you
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42. |
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Cruel and random love
Life is cruel
Second guesses us little fools
And any time try to find the answers
They’ve eluded us
Cruel and random love
We are cruel
It suppresses us
Just we do
And any time we thought we’d find the answers
It just deluded us
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All is myth I feel with my hands
I don’t trust my eyes, they lie
And so do my ears
All is myth I feel I pretend
I don’t know the rules to this life
So I pretend I’m pretending
I try when others aren’t trying
And I sleep when they’re all awake
I look for lines in the earth
And I feel until my heart aches
All is myth I don’t understand
I’m still on my knees in the dark
I feel with my hands
All is myth I just like to sing
I don’t know if there is an end
In finding an ending
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Live on the turn of the tide
Ever to burrow but never to hide
Always the tears in the edge of my eyes
Delivering truth of the live and let lie
Rivers that never run dry
Red from this bleeding heart of mine
Suffer the scratching thorn in my side
Ever the itching of precious pride
Lament of the lonely, the lost all along
Only me only can carry them on
This heart is so heavy I wish I was strong
Only me only the only one
The tide in the morning is nearly gone
It’s lilting and leaving till back it comes
The birds are all winging the dawn is done
It’s only me singing the only one
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The space is all I have, the calm
A face is all I am no arms
Reflecting in water like glass, the past
Forever turning
Love me silver love me blue
All my evenings watching you
Never the time of day
How small the hours I’m waiting through
Bright and tender, sad and true
All the light I offer you
Never to see your eyes
But oh how I turn the tide on cue
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Open my mouth to speak
Nothing comes out
I don’t want you to think that I don’t want you
We’re all afraid of the dark
We all believe ours is the weakest heart
I don’t want you to think that I don’t want you
But what I want to say is written on the stars
So far away
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Congratulations I’ve had more than I can take
You wouldn’t know the line
Until it was behind you
You wouldn’t take the time
You couldn’t learn the lesson
You couldn’t find the way
Though it was written on my face
And all the times I’d say
That this is just the way it is
You hurt me so many times
And you heard me so quiet
And now it is too late
For me to contemplate it
To have a change heart
To go where we started
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48. |
chicago (original demo)
02:07
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It’s not Chicago’s fault that no one came to see my play
It’s not the rain that ruined the parade
The cookie’s gonna crumble and money’s gonna burn
Make your peace with failure an early lesson that you learn
You’re gonna look foolish as the sun is the sky
Some of it is painful and you're gonna have to try
But you wouldn’t trade for all that glitters gold
You only went and made it despite what you were told
And I just chalked it up to just another day
It’s not Chicago’s fault that no one came to see my play
And that’s only way
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caught in the lie
00:39
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Caught in the lie where’s the money, where’s the time ?
And when do you decide that you’ve been wasting your life ?
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There’s nothing to be gained or lost
But only the passing of time
The paradise the pain the loss
The devil the darkness defines
What do you call that piece that binds you heart
And where is the hope in earth and ash and dust
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Trying to make, trying to prove
That we can shape things, things of no use
All out of knots, all out of loose ends
Out of our heartache, out of our misadventure
I’ve got string stronger than rope
Its threaded with silver, it’s threaded with hope
It’s made out of love I wasted on some
It’s stitched to the skyline under the sun
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52. |
composing myself
00:57
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It’s feeble and flimsy and hangs by a thread
Can see it all ending in something I said
And in losing my mind I would be losing my head
I’m lost in the business of composing myself
Get lost in the business of comping myself
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53. |
anon
00:57
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I could borrow a line or waste the rest of my time
Waiting for a sign
I’ve got nothing to give
I know more than I did when I stumbled in
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Josienne Clarke Scotland, UK
Songwriter/Singer 'Onliness (songs of solitude & singularity)'
Out 14.4.23 on Corduroy Punk Records
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